Can you fix an abusive marriage?

I desperately love my husband. I have seen the best in him and by far the worst. I've def shown him the same. However there was a severe incident of abuse that could no longer go ignored. I sought help for our family. He returned my restraining order with divorce papers. I know violence is NEVER ok.I have taken a stand, however I question my approach at this point as the judicial system has failed me terribly. I feel as though I should have gone to the church first. I have complete faith in God to heal him. I just wanna know that I'm not crazy. I've taken all the necessary per cautions to insure my safety and that of my children. He doesn't live in the home and we have a no contact order. I will no longer allow violence to be apart of our family, verbal, physical, emotional alike. However in the light of all this I can't help it but deep down I know We're meant to be a testimony of Gods unfailing love and not a tragedy of human compulsions. I know the work involved and I'm willing, open to turn this into everything it was meant to be. But is he? That I don't know as he has just as much pressure to blame me from his family. My problem is that I have no support other than my church. Am I crazy to still believe?